Since I was a kid, I liked to be left alone with my own thoughts, I was always wandering around, and I was a day dreamer—not an active girl—I would rather be painting or just playing with my dolls.
Then school came and I was forced to know other kids, to learn how to get along with others, and sometimes it was a very hard problem to me. I took very seriously every hard and bullying event towards myself, which made me grow up with less and less hope in humanity.
I became a very shy girl with huge dreams, and very large fear of others. I always thought I was meant to be alone and I was prepared to be later in life and then got engaged and moved in with my beloved. I've completed my studies, and after 15 years we had a baby.
But even now, I don't feel it's easy-going. I still need my moments, and I need to be alone even if it's just for 10 minutes.
This winter I found meditation(沉思) after my new depression and at the same time I've found this wonderful community.
I don't know anyone here, but that's not the point. I get a lot of inspiration and ways of seeing and living life. I learn to be different, I dare to be different and I feel I'm growing inside. I'm in an office full of people, feeling somewhat alone: this online place is a sanctuary(避难所) of kindness.
Before this community, I was able to finish my statements like this with open heart, with no fear of getting hurt.